Beauty - JustForThoughts

I've always found dark skin charming and very attractive. Different people find different things beautiful. It's sad to see that some people tend to set some 'definition' to the beauty, and as a result, allow one to be 'un-beautiful'.

Since young, I've silently been taught to think that fair skin is beautiful; smooth, hairless skin is beautiful; long, silken hair is beautiful. There have been numerous times when I was asked, 'Why have you become darker?' or told, 'Your skin became fairer in these years!' whenever I visit relatives. These subtle 'brainwashing' had gotten me to think that being beautiful means adhering to certain qualities, and 'Fair & Lovely' is anyone's best friend. I don't blame the people from previous generation to preach that; they grew up being taught that as well.

But remember, humans are able to perceive things and think for themselves. Please don't restrict yourself to think that only a subset of qualities are beautiful; broaden your mind and heart. Allow yourself to find the beauty in myriad of things. Please educate the younger generation to appreciate who they are and find their inner beauty. Allow them to go out under the sun once in a while (not too often for the fear of harmful UV rays :P ). Make them spend those hours spent on trying to make them 'beautiful' to be spent on something they might truly love doing. Teach them to be random and imperfect. Make them watch Lupita Nyong'o's amazing speech on beauty. :)

A Random Update

It's been quite a while since I last blogged. To those of you who still visit this page, I present my humble thanks for you.

Now, many things have happened in my life till today. I guess I could say 2013 wasn't a smooth ride after all. It ended with me tasting the tip (perhaps slightly more than the tip) of the failure. Anything becomes rusty if not taken care of properly. Perhaps I should be more aware of myself and my journey.

2014 has been okay so far. I've already been procrastinating. A month has passed, and I could feel the overwhelming workload that's been sneaking up on me. Time to polish up my time-management skills.

I would say after all these years of staying away from family, I've finally realised how much I miss them. It's been a year and a half ever since I felt my parents' hugs. I definitely look forward to seeing them and revisiting a little of my past again.

This year, I gotta apply for internship jobs. *sigh* I think I'm going to have a tough time in getting a job, seeing that there are many competitors out there who are more well-prepared compared to me. However, I'm going to take this as a learning process, and just try my best to get a job. I guess there is no failure, only learning experiences.

Despite the job applications, procrastination, and longing for home and family, I hope I could become stronger and a happier person this year. I want to make people I love happy, and I guess I can't do that without making myself happy. I cry; I laugh. I can't avoid either, and I want to lose neither. My weaknesses make me stronger, and so I just gotta look forward in life. Life is short anyways, and so it's up to me whether I make the time I have significant or insignificant.

I'll try to post regularly in this blog from now on, so keep on checking the blog for more updates! Have a good day, folks!

Signing off,
Deepa.

Just an Outburst.

I feel so embarrassed of myself yesterday. I had an amazing day yesterday, but it felt as if my ability to appreciate was stripped off. My negative emotions clouded the amazing formal I had with my friends. My negative emotions clouded the efforts that my friends put to connect with me.

I started to get emotional over something very small: not having the right attire to wear to the formal. It shouldn't have been a big issue, but my usual emotional tantrum started to take place. I was in tears the whole day, draining energy from my body and soul. I was even unable to appreciate the one friend that is always there to console me. Now, to think back about it, I feel extremely embarrassed over what I've done.

Sometimes, I wonder why I behave like this. I try to avoid myself from behaving like this, but it just happens sometimes, you see. I was thinking of putting the blame on either PMS or bipolar disorder. Actually, bipolar disorder seems legit to me since I usually feel the extremeness of both happy and sad feelings for no reason or for very irrelevant reasons. However, I realise that if I do that, I'm just escaping from my own weaknesses.

I would love to correct what I've done, but too bad time is irreversible. I would love to correct myself in the future, but I am sort of unable to predict when I'm getting the elevated distress. I guess all I can do is try to slap myself to reality whenever the feeling hits me. Just kidding. :P All I can do is to try to avoid having the feeling as much as possible,as I still haven't figured out how to control the feelings once I have it, and I end up hurting everyone around me. :(

P.S I'm so sorry to those whom I ended up hurting till now.