A flower.

Today,

I bloom again.

I bloomed yesterday, and the day before.

I will bloom again tomorrow too.

But, something has changed.

I couldn't find my old petals anymore.

The traces of them slowly fade away into nothingness.

They've always been there, but now they are fading.

My Last Breath

Daddy,
Every step I took
made me breathless
My legs were wobbly
and I couldn’t stand anymore
My throat hurt
every time I gasped for air
Why did this happen to me?

Daddy,
Smoke came out of your mouth
I thought that was cool
So this is what I could smell
when I was inside mommy’s womb
Every puff of smoke you took
left me breathless and weak
back in there and right now.

Daddy,
I’ve fought the urge to sleep
but I can do it no more
As my panting got faster
I slowly closed my eyes
I looked at you one last time
and took in my last … .

Tomorrow.

Misty it was
on the lonely street
a single lamp post
with flickery light.

A black car with diamond eyes
climbed the wall.
Little does it know
it'd fall well into the well.

The moon followed
the flying raven.
Soon it faded,
hidden by dark clouds.

The blue rose glimmered
throughout the dark night,
waiting to wither
tomorrow.



Deepa
TTC
08th Jan 2012

The Last Sight.

Every step

I willingly took

led me to a new beginning.

The young black eyes met

Lack of fear

full of hope.

A silver lining

the day after tomorrow

I saw in his eyes.

Eight steps away,

the garroter stood,

ready to call the day off.

I took a glimpse

at faces with wrinkles

of suffer and death.

Adieu people,

I told them silently.

The Light shall come

when my sight goes Dark.

2:50 pm

Dec 23 2011

Still breathing.

You blow me away
Fallen from the tip
You left me dry
  to be crushed here and there
Yet, you fail.
I’m still breathing.
I crack from your flame
I erode from your acid
You feed on my company
  and left me alone and dusty
Yet, you fail.
I’m still breathing.
Blooming flowers dry out soon
Colourful rainbow fade too quick
Though short-lived, they bring smile
Though I’m broken, I carry hope.
I’m still breathing.

M. Deepa
-4:01 pm-
16 Nov 2011

I love you.

I hate to say that I love you
I hate to say that I miss you
I hate to say that I need you by my side
I hate to say that I care for you
I hate to say that I even cry for you
I hate to say that I wanna be everything in your life
Why couldn’t you see
Why couldn’t you just sense
Why couldn’t you know that all I wanna say is
Boy, I really know that there’s
No another day without you
Now that you have a lil’ of my soul
I love you.
Deepa
28 October 2011

This End of the Road.

Here I am,

on this end of the road.

Turning back,

I see wrong turns

leading to

this end of the road.

Here I am,

with glassy eyes.

Nothing else but

wrong turns in my mind.

How did I end up on

this end of the road?

Here I am,

looking beyond the end.

The path too rough

with stones and sticks.

How I fear to leave

this end of the road?

Here I am,

too afraid to let go

everything I have

for a new start.

Too afraid to step out of

this end of the road.

Here I am,

fooling myself.

False beliefs misting my mind;

false hopes lifting my spirit

though I knew I would be broken on

this end of the road.

Here I am,

not knowing how,

but knowing it by heart

that I need to move on,

leaving behind

this end of the road.

 

7:52 pm

14 May 2011

A0805, Casa Subang.

A small poem

It is just another random crap edition with different title that I‘ve come up with. It won’t make any sense, but I really wanted to post it up here. This poem is inspired by and dedicated to my best buddy. This poem may seem to be incomplete, so I hope you will bear with it.

Play in the playground like you're young
Hunt for the hidden treasure like a pirate
Unpack the wilderness contained in the heart
Make each day a magical adventure
Plop plop plop throw the stone into pond
Honk honk honk honk the horn at the blond
Apple tree is standing nearby
In a minute lets go on top of tree high
Roll your eyes and dare to say no
Yet you will see me go all crazy
Not alone but with my buddy! =)

Deepa

I close my eyes…

Happy Chinese New Year!!! Ang pau na lai?? (Gimme money.. haha)
Well, I’m going back to Penang right now.  Usually I’d be excited when going back, but not this time. It is heart-breaking to know that one of the soul I know is no longer there, where it should be.  My old friend, Lingeswarran is now resting in the heaven.  I feel so sorry for him because this should not have happened to him. He is such a good friend who will get along with anyone easily.  He is very much likable by everyone.  In fact, before he passed away, he was helping his friend.  Kind is what defines him.  But now he’s gone.  Teardrops fall to the ground.  Not mine only, but another hundreds of people who know him by heart.  It is really unfair, the way he died.  He was a victim of “drink and drive” incident.  The guy who hit him was drunken, and he was not. The god took his life away instead.  When I heard this, my heart grieves even more for the lost of an innocent life. This kind of reminds me to a poem I read ages ago.  It was about “drink and drive” also.  I cried when I read the poem that time, and now I cry even more when the poem became horribly true.

When...

When the street is dark
When the clouds hide sunshine
When world seems to be dead
Although it is packed with a bunch of people
When people dear to heart
Are far away in a distant land
When everything that matter
Come to an end and will never begin again
When every step taken
Always end up in the wrong end
And sadly it seems that
There is just no way to start back
When everything seems to be just too complexed
Just take a deep breath, and look around you
For it gives a new strength in you, to turn a fresh new leaf...

Cheers and never give up!!!

Signing off,
Deepa