I close my eyes…

Happy Chinese New Year!!! Ang pau na lai?? (Gimme money.. haha)
Well, I’m going back to Penang right now.  Usually I’d be excited when going back, but not this time. It is heart-breaking to know that one of the soul I know is no longer there, where it should be.  My old friend, Lingeswarran is now resting in the heaven.  I feel so sorry for him because this should not have happened to him. He is such a good friend who will get along with anyone easily.  He is very much likable by everyone.  In fact, before he passed away, he was helping his friend.  Kind is what defines him.  But now he’s gone.  Teardrops fall to the ground.  Not mine only, but another hundreds of people who know him by heart.  It is really unfair, the way he died.  He was a victim of “drink and drive” incident.  The guy who hit him was drunken, and he was not. The god took his life away instead.  When I heard this, my heart grieves even more for the lost of an innocent life. This kind of reminds me to a poem I read ages ago.  It was about “drink and drive” also.  I cried when I read the poem that time, and now I cry even more when the poem became horribly true.

Death of an Innocent

I went to a party, Mom,

I remembered what you said.

You told me not to drink, Mom,

So I drank soda instead.

I really felt proud inside, Mom,

The way you said I would.

I didn't drink and drive, Mom,

Even though the others said I should.

I know I did the right thing, Mom,

I know you are always right.

Now the party is finally ending, Mom,

As everyone is driving out of sight.

As I got into my car, Mom,

I knew I'd get home in one piece.

Because of the way you raised me,

So responsible and sweet.

I started to drive away, Mom,

But as I pulled out into the road,

The other car didn't see me, Mom,

And hit me like a load.

As I lay there on the pavement, Mom,

I hear the policeman say,

"The other guy is drunk," Mom,

And now I'm the one who will pay.

I'm lying here dying, Mom...

I wish you'd get here soon.

How could this happen to me, Mom?

My life just burst like a balloon.

There is blood all around me, Mom,

And most of it is mine.

I hear the medic say, Mom,

I'll die in a short time.

I just wanted to tell you, Mom,

I swear I didn't drink.

It was the others, Mom.

The others didn't think.

He was probably at the same party as I.

The only difference is, he drank

And I will die.

Why do people drink, Mom?

It can ruin your whole life.

I'm feeling sharp pains now.

Pains just like a knife.

The guy who hit me is walking, Mom,

And I don't think it's fair.

I'm lying here dying

And all he can do is stare.

Tell my brother not to cry, Mom.

Tell Daddy to be brave.

And when I go to heaven, Mom,

Put "Daddy's Girl" on my grave.

Someone should have told him, Mom,

Not to drink and drive.

If only they had told him, Mom,

I would still be alive.

My breath is getting shorter, Mom.

I'm becoming very scared.

Please don't cry for me, Mom.

When I needed you,

you were always there.

I have one last question, Mom.

Before I say good bye.

I didn't drink and drive,

So why am I the one to die?

Now, he is gone.  Gone forever, yet remains young forever in hearts of people who knew him.   Now, he will never age.  He will stay nineteen forever.  He will remain kind forever.  He will lighten up their lives with his pure smile. Smile from a heart which knows no sins. When I close my eyes, I pray for his soul. May his soul rest in peace.