Fairy tales. Impropable. (Im)possible.

"Impropable? Yes. Impossible? Not at all."

This is one of the very few quotes that keep on ringing in my mind everytime I face something new in my life. Things might seem very unlikely to happen most of the time. But, I realised that sometimes, we gotta believe that it's very possible to happen in reality if right amount of imagination and effort is mixed. Right now, when I looked out of the window, I see the CN Tower. It's not as pretty as the KL Tower or even KOMTAR in my own country, but yet, it's something I never dreamt of seeing in my life. I never thought that I would come this far in my life. I never really cared how the life leads me in this complicated maze of challenges and changes, although I can't deny that I had dreams of how it would turn out. Most of the times, it would either be simply plain or boring, or scary and depressing. I always thought that fairy tales are highly impropable. 

First of all, what are fairy tales? When the word floats through our mind, the picture that comes along with it is unusual happiness. "Happily ever after". Is that possible in reality? Why our mind is poisoned with something so artificial? Something so impropable? 

All the while, I've been trying to look for a fairy tale ending in every turn I took. Sadly, I was disappointed to see plain nightmares everywhere. There was one point when I thought this highly impropable fairy tale is highly is highly impossible too. Maybe I even stopped looking. Maybe I lost hope.

I had borrowed dreams when I came to Canada. Dreams from my mom, dad, sisters, relatives, friends, strangers, etc. Those dreams kept me alive. For that, I want to thank them. Thank you for lending me some time of yours. Thank you for giving me some hope before I could gain mine. Thank you for everything.

I looked out again. The CN Tower stood tall, as always. I always wondered how this plain, concrete tower could be a landmark for Toronto, a (so-called) happening city. I still remembered how disappointed I was when I first saw the tower. Plain and boring. Nothing to be wowed about. Well, nothing is ever amazing, I guess. 

Then, I realised that the building is lit up every night with LED lights. I wondered how it'd look like at night. Maybe, just maybe, it'd change my perspective. So finally when the time came, I got up on my feet with a couple of friends and went there. As I approached the tower, I realised that it was one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen in my life. Yes, it's artificial. Yet, there's something about it that's making a significant impact in my heart. I was amazed at how simply fixing lights on a concrete tower can make such a hugh difference. That was when I realised that fairy tales are not meant to happen. They were meant to be made. Life is meant to be decorated with hopes too, not to be tainted with despair all the time. There are ups and downs in life, but those are the things that become the light for the plain path. Finally when it's time to depart, that's when we come to realise that our life is a fairy tale indeed, with beautiful people and beautiful hopes that gives warmth to our souls. A beautiful, self-made fairy tale. That's when I realised that borrowed hopes is not enough. I gotta build some of my own. Someday, I might figure out what I want. Maybe I already have  sub-consciously. But, I don't want to stop just yet. I want to make this impropable fairy tale very much possible. Thank you CN Tower for helping me to realise that.





( =P Just some random thoughts. Thanks for reading till the end. Hehe.)